Where I want to be: Escaping Life

Deep in my mind
you were pulling me down
I chose to die
when you were gone

Screaming voices and empty spaces
I could not tell anyone
how much I was wasted

I’ve been a victim
of this feeling for a long time
Every time I fall
I stand up and dust the thoughts behind

Now
it feels like too much to take in
I can’t
rise up and control this bleeding

I’ve been
chained by my own hate
And your voices
they push me to the grave.

Take me
and take away my misery
Burn me
charred to the bones
something I want to be

I’m still stuck
in your past
And the guilt
eats up my heart

You never wanted me
in such a mess
But I can’t free me
from this
And I keep falling
in the dark pit.

I’m never going to forgive myself
for what I didn’t do for you
I’m laughing out loud
but the hurting sorrows seeks through

I just want to run away
from this insanity inside of me
I just need your help
to find a place where I want to be

Image by Shad0wfall (user:Shad0wfall) from Pixabay

Synopsis: A poem about guilt, emotions, and misery. It revolves around the fact that some depressed people tend to embrace guilt from the death of their loved one.