Life & Misery: A Dark Pit

This moment again,
I feel a dark force crawling inside,
I need to be strong,
but all my efforts are denied.

I’ve tried to remind myself,
the reality, and how I sacrificed,
it’s all clear to me now,
I’ve become a man who is despised.

Let me drink tonight,
contaminate the blood to survive,
let me surrender for you to play,
as this life is now my eternal hate.

I never thought,
I will be torn apart like this,
that life will be a mess,
as when a tornado hits.
There is nothing
I can do to stop this feeling,
I’m just running from
these thoughts and I feel sick.

Will you pull me out
of this deep pit?
Will you blow away
this darkness?

Will I survive
your test of time?
Will I be able to fight
the demons inside?

The shattered pieces of my life
float all over the sky,
I’ve tried to fight the darkness,
but your hell smothers me from inside.

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Synopsis: A poem about miserable life, emotions, and wavering faith of a depressed person.