Now That You’re Gone: The Curse

It’s the same time of the year,
when I saw you frozen
but was devoid of tears.

I was broken,
I was lost,
I was mad at you,
but couldn’t speak out loud.

The truth
was that you were gone,
and the promises you made,
just shattered to the ground.

I couldn’t say
that final goodbye,
because you were all that I had.

I find you in my dreams
and fight with you every day,
Why did you leave behind a wall
that I’m unable to break?

I breathe,
but I can’t feel my heart,
I still search for you
in the deepest corners of the dark.

I hope,
you watch me from far above,
do you still love me,
or criticize, what I’ve become?

I smoke,
and drink to your name,
to kill the pain that you left in me, engraved.

I don’t see the light
without you here,
but I know,
you are somewhere better and you still care.

There will be a time
when I’ll see you again,
not sure
I’ll break down or fight with you
for embracing this fate.

I wanted to follow you,
when you entered the paradise alone,
but you’ve made me realize,
there are people around
coupled to my flesh and bones.

I still can’t feel this life
without your shadow,
all I’m left with is a cold heart,
and pain to swallow.

I stand alone, torn apart,
waiting for another day to shut down my heart,
I will not stop,
until I find you on the other side of this world,
when heaven will break me away from this curse.

Image by Arek Socha (user:qimono) from Pixabay

Synopsis: Painful memories poem showcasing a person’s state even after years of the death of his/her loved one.